Something between me and Lily Evans

Oh my J.K. Rowling (we were never allowed to say that in the books, though I always considered it to be a much better wizardish substitution to "Oh my God!" than "Holy Merlin!" and it's all more or less pitiful variations), who did I find in my comments box if not Harry Potter, The Boy Who Lived... to be a constant pain in my certain body part. You actually had the nerve to come here and claim your right to know the truth about me and your late mother. Such an impudent, inconsiderate boy, in other words Gryffindor, you are. *sigh*

But you have managed to polish your expression, and your manners too seem to be perfected a little since your childhood days. And what comes to your sons name (Albus Severus Potter) it has a certain clang to it. How did they say it sounded... oh yes, like a slash threesome, indeed. Anyway, the gesture is appreciated, not merely ridiculed.

As I'm not sure how familiar you are with your mothers past, and therefore mine too, I have to start from the beginning. But don't even think I'm going to give you any details! You asked what there was between me and Lily Evans, so here it comes.

We happened to live quite near each others as a child. We met accidentally, found we had certain things in common and we enjoyed our time spent together. Naturally we grew up to be very good friends. We were more than happy to realise we could both attend the School of Hogwarts, but little did we know what importance our ill-fated sorting to different houses had to our destinies ahead. We still managed to maintain our precious friendship while at school, though it came harder year by year. Not least because of your father and his associates. Everybody loved Lily. She was amazing, in every aspect. We had many severities on our way, but we could surpass all of them. Until one day... something very unfortunate happened, and we could no longer carry on as we had used to. So, James Potter managed to soften her heart, I gave my allegiance elsewhere while searching constancy and reverence from another direction and the rest is history know to all.

You know I loved her. I loved her more than anything. And when I misconceively thought I had lost her, I thought I had lost everything. Nothing mattered anymore. I was such a fool... such an insecure and overly emotional fool. So, I deserved every second of my miserable and lonely life, cause I knew it was all my fault. But... no need to dwell in that anymore.

So, from past to present. As I managed to deceive death and freed myself from its mortal grip, I accidentally learnt more about alternative universes. I learnt that there are myriads of alternative life paths, both in the past and in the future, that are just waiting to be explored by an investigator aptitude enough. Ever since I have been privileged enough to be in contact with my alternative younger self and Lily, as I once knew her. She's not your mother though, as she has chosen a different lifepath, that is remarkable divergent from the one known to so many. I know this is not an easy thing to understand, but you may as well keep her as an old man's delusion. Because that's what she is to you.

The Pensieve

Some other memories

And some more

Severus Snape is property of J.K Rowlings, the author of Harry Potter -books the writings are mine though.


  1. Cheeriyo wrote 13.11.2008 - 17:32
    I appreciate what you wrote Professor. Brilliant! Cheers.

    Hermione Granger wrote 13.11.2008 - 18:37
    Oh, that's quite much to expose of you, professor Snape. It makes me wondering if you were under imperius curse or accidentally drank some veritaserum? And I think also that Fred and George are childish to even hint that rubbish. *blush*

    sddeedde wrote 07.12.2008 - 00:29
    How old are you?

    Severus Snape wrote 07.12.2008 - 21:48
    To Cheeriyo: It was good to see that some one actually appreciates my writings. Thank you.

    To Hermione Granger: Damn it Granger, was there really anything exposed that you didn't already know. No, I was not under any curse or Veritaserum, it's just that I got tired of all those misleaded speculations and rumours. The only thing you got right this time was your words about Weasley twits. Exactly so.

    To sddeedde: What kind of name is that? Sddeedde? Are you a home-elf or what? I can't see why you should be aware of my age, besides, it depends how you calculate it. For example, did I grow older when I was dead? Anyway, I was bor in January 1960. You should be able to count my age from that.

    Weasleys' twins wrote 08.12.2008 - 20:52
    We were coming to ask has this place or professor Snape (again) died but delightly recognised some life here. We are also quite stunned that we find two such a noble person to talk bad behind someone's back.

    G: What do you think brother, should we punish them?
    F: Yes, maybe nice little Permanent Sticking Charm to their lips would be nice. *wide smiles*

    Black wrote 09.12.2008 - 18:11
    Oh, so Severus Snape isn't lost after all. Where have you been? How about some new entertaining posts?

    Cheeriyo wrote 09.12.2008 - 21:44
    Prof. you are back, how wonderful! *nods and smiles cheerfully at everyone in the room* yes, I enjoyed all your posts. *cheerful smile continues*

    Black wrote 10.12.2008 - 15:33
    Ugh, please, stop being so cheerful. It is annoying. We can be happy about his return without silly smiles, can't we?

    Cheeriyo wrote 10.12.2008 - 20:31
    Do I sound annoying my friend? *laughs cheerfully* But I can\\\'t help. I am known as Doctor Cheeriyo, the head healer of St. Mungoos. *nods and smiles* and I am from Korea, where cheerful people live. *cheerful grin*

    Black wrote 10.12.2008 - 20:53
    Aargh. That explains a lot. Well, then. Carry on. I see that you can't help it.

  2. Tsk-tsk, Severus, revealing all my deepest secrets ;-).

    My personal favorite universe is the one where things did work out between us. It's been a bumpy ride, but it was definitely worth it.